Counting Crows' lyrics

Raining In Baltimore

This circus is falling down on its knees
The big top is crumbling down
It's raining in Baltimore fifty miles east
Where you should be, no one's around
I need a phone call
I need a raincoat
I need a big love
I need a phone call
These train conversations are passing me by
And I don't have nothing to say
You get what you pay for
But I just had no intention of living this way
I need a phone call
I need a plane ride
I need a sunburn
I need a raincoat
And I get no answers
And I don't get no change
It's raining in Baltimore, baby
But everything else is the same
There's things I remember and things I forget
I miss you I guess that I should
Three thousand five hundred miles away
But what would you change if you could?
I need a phone call Maybe I should buy a new car
I can always hear a freight train baby if I listen real hard
And I wish it was a small world
Because I'm lonely for the big towns
I'd like to hear a little guitar
I guess it's time to put the top down
I need a phone call
I need a raincoat

Sailing the ship alone

My little first mate is looking out the window - for some reason, I love this photo.

My big first mate is now staying with his parents until Saturday so that he can figure out how he can help his Mom take care of his Dad. I miss my big first mate and its only been a few hours since I have last seen him. He's called me twice today because he misses me and I think he's feeling like he's swimming in waters that could easily go over his head. Its a horrible situation, but I know that my big first mate feels better about the situation because at least he feels like he's helping in some way.

Its funny because any doubt that I had is gone.

End of term

Arg - I can't believe its the end of the school year! Usually I'm thrilled at this time of year thinking about all the possibilities that summer will bring - but, alas, this year I am thinking about the few months of full time fun I have left with my little first mate. Sad...

Today is a special day - the world changed for me a year ago today, and luckily the seas have calmed down and the voyage continues. At the time, it was horrible, but so much good has come out of it, I feel that it was a good thing...crappy that it had to happen, but I'm glad to be on the otherside of it.

Brokeback Mountain

Although this movie contains "my new boyfriend" Jake Gyllenhaal (who is just so good looking) I found it to be very painful to watch. Heath Ledger's performance was great, but it was really hard to understand what he was saying.
The plot was great and the wonderful acting on the part of all the actors involved really made this movie, but isn't the real question unanswered? Its sort of like how the grass is always greener on the otherside. Would Gyllenhall's character and Ledger's character really have been happier by being together - or was their love that much more special because they were not able to be together? I mean, the real world changes fairytale relationships (I know - that was part of the point of the movie - why they couldn't be together), but there is something much more romantic in dreaming of "what could have been" rather than knowing.

Finding "the Shed"

I am currently looking for a shed. I am also designing a deck for our backyard.

Somehow I find making designs somewhat ...fun. I mean, I'm really trying to do things properly and come up with a solid design - and that does include the dreaded...math - but for some reason, I kind of like it.

Sick huh!